Fear. We have all felt it and it makes us feel uncomfortable. I used to try to steer clear of it as much as possible but it is truly a battle to be fought and something we must overcome in every aspect of our lives.
Conquer Fear - Ashley Horner
When I first started my fitness journey I was afraid. I was afraid that I wouldn’t know what to do because I had never picked up a barbell. I was afraid people in the gym would judge me because I wasn’t lifting as heavy as some of them. I was afraid that I wouldn’t or couldn’t finish my program. I remember the exact feeling when I first started thinking that people were watching me and silently judging. It was fear. Fear of failing or doing something wrong. Day after day I went and I felt that feeling. But guess what? I went to the gym everyday despite that feeling. Without thinking about it I was acting on the fact that what I wanted to accomplish was more important to me than that feeling of fear. At the time I was kicking fear’s ass and I didn’t even realize it.
Fast forward to today…I am two weeks out from my very first Spartan Beast race. Was I afraid to sign up? Yes. I was afraid I couldn’t finish and that it would be too hard. However, as soon as those thoughts crept into my head, I clicked that register button. Fear is something I have learned to recognize and push past. Now I crave a challenge. I have learned that every time I challenge myself I learn and grow. I have learned that the feeling on the other side of fear feels so much better.
I am learning to understand rather than immediately judge or be judged. I cannot blindly follow the crowd and accept their approach. I will not allow myself to indulge in the usual manipulating game of role creation. Fortunately for me my self-knowledge has transcended that and I have come to understand that life is best to be lived and not to be conceptualized. I am happy because I am growing daily and I am honestly not knowing where limit lies. To be certain, everyday there can be a revelation or a new discovery. I treasure the memories of past misfortunes, they have added more to my bank of fortitude.
Don’t let fear stop you. Harness the desire and passion you have and use it to conquer fear. For once you do, you will be free.